What do I think? What am I doing? What kind of life am I seeking?
So what? Have I got everything I want? No way!
Even worse, I lost it.
Totoally confused in my brain, it hurts. But I am doing nothing about it, in other words, I just let it happen.
Deeply depressed, lying under the PC. Lying? Lying? Very good word.

What on earth is right for me?
I am lost.